Saturday, January 23, 2010
Why am i like this again? Why cant i just get over it? I thought i have, but i havent.
I have been telling myself i will be this and that and i thought i can handle these things, and here i am, falling back down again. I hate disappointing myself. Will i really really get over this in my entire life?
Hate that you can go anywhere u want and anytime u wan just because u feels like it. Hate that i cant handle it when i thought i could.
Its like i already knew the storm will eventually hit me, and i tot i've made the most protective barrier, and when the actual storm really hits me, till den i really the barrier was not strong enough and it hits me hard, pain, down.
Why do i keep disappointing myself? When will this dreadful feelings go away? Hate it!
♥ loving you endlessly ♥
6:34 PM
Sunday, January 17, 2010
Kinda rusty on blogging for quite some time. So here i am, blogging for my eyes to see only cause think most thought i abandon this blog alr and its seems i'm kinda leaving it aside.
Life has gone rather smoother for me for quite some time, i learnt to move on with a more optimistic view in life.
Working my butts off now cause i needa the money badly for my further studies which i am very vexed about. Been gng thru my head round and round where sld i be heading for the future, and seriously, there is not a station there i wish to drop off and move out onwards frm there.
Love love love. My baby boy has been working his butts butts off for dew mths alr, and starting to save save save. I can see its kinda dramatic change for him, but still, its a path where everyone has to cross eventually. And i also do hope that at the same time he is working, he is also working towards his future, hoping we both will find a path that is perfect for us :) Loving u as usual. (and pls dun keep irritating me!! LOL)
Family... As usual, not much changes, mummy working, bro working, dog staying home as usual.
And and and and and, winter has grown fat recently, and one of the resolutions for this yr is to slim down!!! and of course many more resolutions that i hope to fulfill this yr!!
♥ loving you endlessly ♥
3:36 PM
