To the world you may be just one person,but to one person you may be the world.
Who do you turn to when the only person in the world that can stop you from crying, is exactly the one making you cry?
Do you love me because I am beautifulor am I beautiful because I am loved?
For every word you say, another piece of my heart you take.
Never say goodbye when you still want to try.Never give up when you still feel you can take it.Never say you don't love a person when you can't let go.
I admit I were never the perfect one... I was never always there... I didn’t make you smile at times but there is one thing I admit I did.. I was the best person I could be for you.
When you realize you want to spend the rest of your life with somebody, you want the rest of your life To start as soon as possible."
If you love me, put my name in a circle; not a heart, a heart can be broken, a circle goes on forever.
What lies behind us, and what lies before us are tiny matters compared to what lies within us.
♥ loving you endlessly ♥
5:21 PM
Saturday, December 16, 2006
Holidays loh!!!! yippy!!!
juz wanna post a pic, lolz....
LOVING MYSELF!!!!!
♥ loving you endlessly ♥
3:45 PM
Friday, December 15, 2006
hmmm.... today went sch at 8am for RWP presentation. we were all almost late coz no morning call, lol.... too dependent on morning call le... lol... hmm, din really do well, cher say we all talk too fast like machine gun, LOLz... then meet up with the guys and went for next class....
during Dr pho class is the most funniest de... mi and geok were having a war with 2 RED ANTS!!! lol... we keep our hands and feet off the table and floor, oni the butt sticking to the chair, i was wondering, y not juz kill it, its SO SMALL!!! but we juz cant do it... lol...
after that went to work at 2pm. boring... dear was slping the whole afternoon, so practically din really communicate today, although did feel sth missing but i cant do or say anithing... staring at annoying customers and my fierce mum the whole afternoon. he woke up at 7 when i called him, after that msg less then 5 and he sat 'talk ltr'... den from 7 to 10 plus, no call, no msg, HOW I WISH TO CALL AND MSG HIM!!! but i hold myself back, i was like wondering, did he missed mi, if yes y nth from him... hmm... being paranoid and stupid again!!! den i was like somehow enduring not to call or msg to diturb him, FINALLY got a call from him at 10.30, asking mi whether rach home le ma, eaten le ma, wan play game ltr come in k, bb', so quite happy thpugh but still trying to hold back all the emotions i had. now dear gng down to drink liao, guess wont be contacting till sat le ba, aniway, hope he emjoy himself den... and honestly, I M CONTROLLING DUNNO FOR WAT FK NOW!!! werid la, better find 1 day go pray pray coz i think i abit ki siao liao... lol....
thats all folks!!! chOws
♥ loving you endlessly ♥
12:22 AM
Monday, December 11, 2006
serious help needed!!! those who fking free feel free to come and accompany mi and thankz... i m really mad, i am paranoid and i m stupid and i duno wtf am i doing. i m wrong, totally wrong. everything i do dun seems rite, the feelings i had had all gone haywire. ALL WRONG. my world is going upside down and making mi breathless. i cant breath and i cant feel my heart beating animore. i relied too much on ppl, too much too much and expect ppl to make my heart pump, FROM TODAY ONWARDS, i m going to make my heart pump on MY OWN. i dunwan do stupid things and feeling mad and sad over small and unnecssary things animore, i m gonna change, izzit changing for the better or bad i duno, let fate decide.
i believe alot in fate, if we are meant to be, everything will go the way it was planned for us, if not then its juz a sweet goodbye for us. at least we both had each other before. hope fate is not cruel to us. and hope my heart will pump as normal as possible, pumping for u and for myself. gimme time, i will change, i will feel happy for every every thing u do, i will control my feelings and wun give u unnecssary face animore. i m sorry, i m wrong, sorry sorry sorry. saying sorry to u maybe makes mi feel better even though i dun think everything is my fault.
enjoy urself everytime when u r out, dun need care bout mi, i will be fine and i promise. if i am paranoid and acting stupid again, juz let mi be, i will recover on my own. i am gonna to be more independent on my feelings, that will be better for both u and mi....
loving u still...
today went to school with a good morning mood. went for gems, had our presentation, mi and aric were the one presenting coz gm did most of the work alr, sry gm! lol... then went for our BMIC pract test, stupid test, sianz, i go and view wrong magnification for my plant cell ah!!! sobz... our clique were the fastest to finish and went out de, lol... den went to eat and to library to do PBL, then last l hr lesson i was damm shagged sia... teacher mad de, 1 hrs finish 10 plus pgs work, expect us to rmb everything... siao! i damm tired till slp in class...
after sch, linny and justin and gm went orchard, then mi and pat went home, seriously dun really feel like gng home coz my hse seems damm empty and i go home also nth to do... argh... den wait till dear wake up at 7 plua, then play 2 rds of dota then he went fishing le... enjoy... i damm sianz now, think gng slp le ba... be pig be pig... hope i will have a sweet dreams tonite.
thnx pat and linny and ain for everything. really appreciate that.
♥ loving you endlessly ♥
11:52 PM
Friday, December 08, 2006
Today went for cell bio prac again, another scary scary day for mi early in the morning. But luckily Yuen is not aroud, wahaha, then its tat shy shy teacher. She talk damm boring la, today my morning mood already suck to the core and she made mi more moodless after listening to 'duno what the hell she talking about'. Then we are supposed to taste th PTC, if can taste the bitterness means u are a taster, then when she finish saying eveything, she say 'anyway, PTC is an acid and its posionous' and we were all like 'DIAO' but then she say its diluted so it should be ok ba.
After that went to fc1 and had a break of almost 3 hours. The first hour ++ the four of us were sitting down and chat and guess what, geok also had a thrashed out time with seb the previos day, so coincidence then mi and my bf also. LOL, we were both like pandas, but geok is big panda, i small panda only. Haiz, bad bad bad day ah. Seriously, i dunno what the hell is going on these 2 days. I am hurt, really really hurt this time, i duno why. Maybe its nothing big but suddenly my eyes tell mi that it had reached its limit and dunwan to secrete any more tears le. I dun wanna lose him cause i cant afford to, but my emotion really breakdown and felt so helpless. GERS SHOULD BE INDEPENDENT and therefore i am gng to be more independent in the future! c'mon chris, u can do it yea... I will contimue to love him, and ppl who noe mi well, plz plz caution mi or tel mi if i had been toooo overrrr independent k.... thnx... and thnx those who were will mi these days cheering mi up... ty yea.... i'll be fine, veri fine de... NP....
I think geok is worse then mi ba, geok, must gambatte k... juz wanna let u noe that dun even make decisions that u noe u will regret de k...
After that 3 hrs break, went for IO chem, had been feeling so sick last few days becoz of the flu but today better le, slept for 10mins during the lessons, suddenly feel like drifting off... haha... after that actually dunwan go home coz ltr go home anyhow think again but bo bian, pat they all got gems, no one free to accompany mi so juz went home. Dear woke up at 3 plus asking mi wanna go pulau ubin eat anot at 4 plus to celebrate a ger's bday, but obviously the time is so rush so din make it. Now think he gng kbox and duno play till wat time ba, say will be meeting mi tml in the morning but..... nah, let things take its course, dun wanna expect much and get myself diappointed again. Dear, i may be wrong at times, but i will change and i did change but sometimes due to some circumstances, i just cant help it. SORRY...
Oh ya, 1 damm funny thing i wanna post. Monday had our Basic micro pratical, there is a jar filled with alcohol and slides that we are supposed to used le. I DID SOMETHING WRONG to it and scare the hell out of mi and ain. I heat the forceps and its still damm hot, then i nv wait for it to cool down and str8 away dip inside the alcohol to take 1 slide, and u all noe, ALCOHOL WILL CATCH FIRE, then suddenly i saw yellow and blur colour thing in the jar, then i took my forceps out and look again, OMG, its on FIRE!!!!!!! damm scary la, my heart was thumping and praying that it wun explode coz i dunwan die so early, haha... then i faster tell ain then we shouted for teacher, teacher came and say, cover the jar back, and we did. then the fire just gone le, zzz, so 'DIAO'... haha....
tats all... damm long sia... lol..... go find things to occupy myself le.... so bored....
Btw, Happy Birthday Justin...
♥ loving you endlessly ♥
9:47 PM
