Sunday, October 26, 2008
Hah, back again for a random post.
Hmm, i always had "bothered" feeling rushing over me whenever i come across a happy and complete family chatting and laughing to each other.
People might be thing: "oh, she must be from a very great family", but still proudly to mention i'm not. I am contented with my life although i'm from a broken family. My mum solely brought me and my brother up since 15 years ago. AND i meant SOLELY!!! She worked her ass off from day to night almost everyday and she did her part as a mum. I have everything i can dream of not comparing to those rich brats though.
But i never really experience a complete "own" family warmth. Having dad and mum and brother by my side watching a movie, having picnic, having a "family day" on every sunday, having my dad being the "man in the house" giving mi commands and stuff.
I had been independent since and so is my brother. I am, however, not so independent in EMOTIONS, if some of you who are close to me should know.
Daddy had not been doing his daddy part for years except for giving us some money sometimes. I do want to get close to him though we are separated but somehow it doesn't really worked for me and brother, but i am trying my best in case one day i lost my chance to call someone daddy in this world.
Again to mention, I am really really PROUD of my mum. She left my dad when she knew some ugly truth and having a gambler dad in our lives is not a future she want us to have. She left although she really dun wish to. Can you guys imagine a woman of age 30, having no assets of her own, bringing 2 child under age of 5 and living in this harsh world on her own without a guy to be by her side to support her? She had to shed tears behind closed doors, she had to comfort herself every single day as we are too young and cant be there for her and she had to encourage herself to keep on going every minute. Its been really hard on her.
BUT, she held on till now!
Recently some unexpected stuffs happen to her and i truly from the bottom of my heart and praying that my prayers will be heard and hope that she would be strong and stand up again. And truly hope my brother will be sensible enough to be the "man" in our family.
I LOVE YOU MUMMY!
Forever and forever.
No one could ever replace you from my heart!
♥ loving you endlessly ♥
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