Thursday, May 31, 2007
this is it.. time's off for now.. no thinking, no quarrels.. lets see what will happen. i duno, i dun wanna think, i dun wanna be troubled by it. let fate decide everything for mi. i'm leaving things as it is.
peps, dun force oxygen into my mouth, let me breath on my own. its stressful to think for everyone. its stressful to think of so many ppl's feelings. its stressful to feel their pain. its stressful tat i'm also feeling pain. i understand how u all feel, plz do understand me to. let things go its flow. i will oni listen to my heart, so win my heart if u wan, not my mind.
just wanna be happy always, everyday. having a smile on my face will be the best thing tat happen to me. do tat peps. ty
*i dun meant to offend anione nor bringing anione down. just wanna let u guys noe*
♥ loving you endlessly ♥
6:10 PM
Wednesday, May 30, 2007
woke up at 9.. which is a wrong time.. haiz, so missed my lesson. anyway, also no mood go lesson. i got tons of things tat haven got into my mind and today is tat damm important test. went school at 12.. so pathetically, eating hor fun also must look at that damm notes and memorise... cant even had a good lunch. din really ate much, no appetite.went for the test.. when i got the paper and read, Q1 skipped Q2 skipped, Q3 skipped... gosh, basically skipped all the qns. my mind went blank.. i felt stressed. nothing seems to come out. i gave up and do the paper half heartedly. if i just passed, it will be a miracle. if i failed, its expected. if i passed with flying colours, its 101% impossible.i'm tired. i'm shagged. my mind cant think well. its keeps going blank. my body is tired. and muscle aches. i din eat much but i m not hungry. what in the world is going on huh... felt so stranger to my life, tis is werid. 力不从心
♥ loving you endlessly ♥
7:53 PM
5TH TIME... GREAT! NUMBEDi m sorry. sorry tat i cant do wat u wanted. i cant be the understanding wonderful me in ur heart. to u, i've just tried not enuff to make u notice. and haven u noticed? i changed my attitude towards u, trying to act childish infront of u just wanna make u smile. i try my best not to let u worry. this time i dunwan explain or argue back le, i admit i've done no action to prove my words. i admit.i've really gt nothing to say.. i dunwan to explain coz i noe wat i say u can always fight back. maybe ur mum is right, i m just another problem to u now, a BIG prob. i lost my phone, got fking memorise tests, pms.. wow... and i lost u... i am somehow quite unlucky these few days huh... lolz... this is mi. this is mi. i tried but this is it. i m sorry. if u cant accept this kinda mi, i've got nothing to say. u said it urself. we quarrelled so mani times becoz of the same old dumb thing, we still will eventually. tat is us. its my lost to lose u. living w/o me will be a better off choice. sometimes i wonder, becoz of something so small, u can just say out the words so easily. hah.. no matter how tired i m, seriously, i never said it out b4. guess its really hard for u to handle ba. u r right, cooling off will be a good choice. i did not make any decision coz i duno wat decision sld i make, since u made urs, i would just follow. "i've tried so hard to express all my feelings to her, but i still cant reach tat point.i love her stil. but i m stuck" hmm... nothing i can say except i m sorry my dear, sorry for disappointing u. forget, my pain ache when i cont typing. from today onwards, ya, everyone will see a diff chris.. wee... trying to fence off my heart somehow, its just too weak and soft..闭上眼睛忍住呼吸 暂时要和世界脱离 就快要学会不再想你 却听见不断跳动的心 我允许了你 让爱的自由还给你 我允许了自己 承受这悲伤到天明 我不愿放弃却要故意默默允许 我答应自己爱你的心绝口不提 总是以为终究化髟频缜?爱你到底 痛了自己所有结局在这夜里都已成形 爱到了底 痛的是我的真心
♥ loving you endlessly ♥
10:12 AM
Monday, May 28, 2007
I LOST MY N73!!!!!!!!!!!!!damm damm dammm la....... wtf la.... i lost it i lost it... omg... 700 bucks flew away!!!! gosh!!!! haiz... dun ask dun luff dun think.... i dun wish to talk abt it!!!*curse the person hu took my phone* humpt!!!! i lost all my contacts... all kind enuff plz leave mi ur no.!!!! email or watsoever!!!! royal_winter@hotmail.comgreatly appreciated!!!
♥ loving you endlessly ♥
10:32 PM
Saturday, May 26, 2007
SICK AH!!!! woke up early in the morning feeling so damm xinku.. went to take my temp and its 39 degree... scare mi to death... mum still kp early in the morning.. zzz...
ty everyone for concern.. especially pat!!! she even offered to bring a cap for mi.. so cute.. travelled all the way to the "da bian shui aka NEWater centre"... tanah merah sio!!!! omg la... and i stayed at bp... gosh... when met up, pat passed mi a liang shui say is her mum gimme de.. waa.. so gd.. even better den my mum...
had the damm tour for 1 hr... so boring... took cab back and see a doctor coz really cannot take it le.. i can swear i really damm long nv stepped into a clinic le... sooooo fit sia mi!! but i guess this virus too fierce le, my body cannot take it.... and u noe wat?? i went into the doc's room NOT EVEN MORE THAN 5 MINS I COME OUT LE... wth la... zzz...
tats all ba... lazy type le.. chow~
♥ loving you endlessly ♥
1:03 AM
Tuesday, May 22, 2007
♥ loving you endlessly ♥
9:34 PM
Start of 5th day!!! yea.. endure endure!!! my dear.. soon i can hear ur voice le... wee...today mum off from work so... went shopping with her!!!! wee..... went orchard and shop from late afternoon to night.... bought quite a few things... so happy.. haha.... but shall not say wat i buy ba.. haha... went villa'ge eat.. haha.. soo nice.... actually okok nia la.. not so nice also....
so... come obsessing pics.. haha..
mi and mummy when she talking on phone.. natural pic.. haha
my food.. weee
hmm... its a bit too much yea... haha.... boo
ps: ur slot here again... hmm.. really miss ur company... luckily gt mum(shopping), pat(shopping), ruifeng(dota), chunrui(dota) and some others frends to help mi pass my time... hee... hope to hear from u soon!!! love u love u dear... muackz
♥ loving you endlessly ♥
12:41 AM
Monday, May 21, 2007
Mon amour, vous faire vous rend compte combien j'aime l'u et vous manque. je vous veut avec moi maintenant !
♥ loving you endlessly ♥
1:44 AM
Sunday, May 20, 2007
4th day afternoon!!!! yeah... 4 more days and dear will be back.... oni can talk on phone though... ahh... better than nothing yea...was at home ytd... then was rotting at home... bored till i really run out of idea to do wat.. cant expect me to study whole day rite.. haha... so the rotting me and pat decided to go out!!! haha.. meet at around 5 plus, went to shop shop at fareast den ate hor fun!!!
after that we walk to cine to take neoprints then to taka's coffee bean to study.. den we saw this 'pretty boy' sitting opposite of us.. haha... he was those handsome kinda pretty boy.. haha... den he went off so early, me and pat was so sad.. haha... *despo gals* den he went off... after awhile pat was like hitting me and very anxiously pulling me and pointing outside.. den i looked out and saw tat guy again... he was coming from the direction he went off to just now... tat we were so sad tat he passed and hope tat he will walk back again... but i told pat it was impossible for a ACjc guy to be so stupid and walk back aimlessly.. haha... just went i decided to go toilet, i stood up and saw tat guy walking back again... LOLz... this time our reaction was so damm big till 1 uncle infront also trying to see what are we so excited about... haha... just after i say he wun be so dumb and walked back, and he did walked back... lolz... tat was the last we saw of him....
reached home around 11 plus after eating out with mum....
ps: dear, dun misunderstand wor.. haha... i only have u in my heart.. haha.. love u... cant wait for ur return!!! faster get ur ass back!!!! kisses..
♥ loving you endlessly ♥
4:32 PM
Saturday, May 19, 2007
3rd day morning!!!!
sick sick sick!!!! sore throat, sore eyes... dammit la... its INFLAMMATION!!!! guess my white blood cells count sure increased de.. they are fighting a tough tough war.. hope they faster end the world and make mi back to NORMAL!!!! better dun trigger a fever!!! *pray* grrrrr... i hate to be sick.... coz when i sick, there will be NO ONE to take care of mi.... sobz.. so sad la.. nothing plain to eat excepy maggi.... gosh... guess i've to lean to be independent yea... jia you...
ps: missing u lotx..... muackiex
♥ loving you endlessly ♥
11:54 AM
2nd day over!!! start of 3rd day!! still long!!!! time tick tock to tock so slow... time is so hard to pass...
had lesson early in the morning.. dmmit la, really had boarding the 7am++ trains, those ppl is like damm kiasu la.. keep pushing and pushing... WAIT< BE PATIENT, U WILL GET IN/OUT OF THE TRAIN...! grr... no comments man... juz kana squeeze like a sandwich, and the bad thing is i'm so small and short, looks so insignificant figure in the train.. dotz...
had lessons and lessons... got back heamotology quiz 1, not bad though...
then went for gems... bored!!! den went library and zilian with my honey pat.... den went gor last hr lesson till 4pm den go home!!!
bought my dog down for a walk and went for a run myself... hmm.. tats all today
ps: here is my delication to u again.. haha... miss u miss u ah... wat are u doing man??? i am so lonely, so bored!!! argh... faster come back....!!! muackiez
♥ loving you endlessly ♥
1:09 AM
Thursday, May 17, 2007
1st day night... yea.. time really flies yea.... slow la!!! humpt... cant wait cant wait... still got so long to go... how am i going to pass time... normally i still can look forward to the night's chatty with him but now... nothing nothing... how pathetic am i!!!! bored bored... went for morning lessons till 1 den pat they all got pract at 2-5pm... and my freaking next lesson is at 5... gosh.. how am i going to wait ALONE??? so.... missycat decided to went back to her home sweet home... haha... juz finished watching Pan's Ladybrith... hmm... lame? but okok la.. no comments... so now.. hmm... wat sld i do....?? rot till i slp!!! yeah, good idea...
ps: delicated a slot for u each day so u can read it when u come back yea?? how thoughtful am i.. *weee* miss u miss u... no words can describe... u are just occupyng my mind... haha.. thinking of u slping with the slimy and sticky snail.. thinking of u training in the mud *yiks*.. thinking of u cant bath for 6 days *omg!*!! haha... so mani so mani... waiting for ur return!!! muackz
eh, some obsessing with myself yea...
I stood there and think about, All the time that had gone by,
All the time we've spent together,
Loving u just comes so easily,
And i never questioned why,
You are my dream when i'm not sleeping...
♥ loving you endlessly ♥
6:44 PM
1st day!!!! 6 days more for dear's return..SO SAD!!!! dear went field camp!!! its alr damm pathetic enough to talk on phone oni for like 15mins per day and meet oni 24hrs in a week... dammit la... and now gt this damm field camp.... CANNOT TALK ON PHONE AT ALL!!!!! 7 days leh!!!!! den this wkends burned also... grrr... i need company!!! my dearest geok, pat and ain will be my companion for 2 wks....ps:dearest dear... may god blessed.... take gd gd care of urself... i will always be here.... gambatte!!!
♥ loving you endlessly ♥
12:09 AM
Tuesday, May 15, 2007
Inspired by e song:
mi and dear's place for huggies!!! HAHA.. all catch de hor... NOT BUY DE!!!
Ps: This post specially delicated to u!!! muackzz
♥ loving you endlessly ♥
11:37 PM
Saturday, May 12, 2007
had a tiring tiring week.. almost everyday 8-6... long long tiring day!!! gosh!!!! cant wait to have my 1 week break.. faster come!!!
had my haemotology test today... okok though but really regret din study harder enuff.. sob... had our gems presentation, went smoothly though... den mi and pat went lib watch DVD!!! and skipped poi's lesson.. haha....
went to squash at 5.30pm... and we got a bad news.. a duno wat compeition had been pushed forward, so tat are gng to train the seniors and ask us not to come till sep... so sad la!!! grrrr.....
nothing much this week though... cant wait to see my darling dear!!!!
mish you!
Wee.. my red blood and white blood cells... cool huh? my pretty Eosinophil!!!
and this
weird looking 'question mark' is justin's neutrophil!!! i think tat white blood cell is blur abt its own function tats y appear as a question mark.. haha...
ooh... this is
real pig's heart!! poor pig.... anyway, gonna disect a frog in 2 wks time.. cant waiT!!!
♥ loving you endlessly ♥
12:10 AM
Thursday, May 03, 2007
gRRrr... MY BUTT HURTS!!!!!had training yesterday, not much physical training ba... but did some footwork and i fell on on butt.. dotz... pai seh sia... haha.. den hor, 1 FUNNY incident... mi and pat was supposed to throw the ball at the wall and use the racket to hit back.. and one time, she picked up the ball and THROW AT ME!!! then i ask her wat happen while she is laughing away and she replied:"I THOUGHT U ARE THE WALL!! HAHA!!!" dotz lo... lolz... damm funny...today had lesson at 8am... had trouble putting on my lashes today.. bad start for mi... ended sch at around 1 den went to eat in school den went bugis with justin and guojie to get guoming's present... had a hard time choosing... i juz cant keep my eyes off those pretty pretty clothes.. had an eye for 2 shorts and a cute dress... i m gonna get them... wahaha....
zi-lian-ing thw whole day.. haha... boo.... my butt hurts!!!!
ps: deardear, missing u much.. can see u tml le... wahaha... cant wait cant wait.... going to party with ur gu-dus le... haha.. opps!
♥ loving you endlessly ♥
7:53 PM
Wee.. my red blood and white blood cells... cool huh? my pretty Eosinophil!!!
and this weird looking 'question mark' is justin's neutrophil!!! i think tat white blood cell is blur abt its own function tats y appear as a question mark.. haha...
ooh... this is real pig's heart!! poor pig.... anyway, gonna disect a frog in 2 wks time.. cant waiT!!!
