Monday, December 11, 2006
serious help needed!!! those who fking free feel free to come and accompany mi and thankz... i m really mad, i am paranoid and i m stupid and i duno wtf am i doing. i m wrong, totally wrong. everything i do dun seems rite, the feelings i had had all gone haywire. ALL WRONG. my world is going upside down and making mi breathless. i cant breath and i cant feel my heart beating animore. i relied too much on ppl, too much too much and expect ppl to make my heart pump, FROM TODAY ONWARDS, i m going to make my heart pump on MY OWN. i dunwan do stupid things and feeling mad and sad over small and unnecssary things animore, i m gonna change, izzit changing for the better or bad i duno, let fate decide.
i believe alot in fate, if we are meant to be, everything will go the way it was planned for us, if not then its juz a sweet goodbye for us. at least we both had each other before. hope fate is not cruel to us. and hope my heart will pump as normal as possible, pumping for u and for myself. gimme time, i will change, i will feel happy for every every thing u do, i will control my feelings and wun give u unnecssary face animore. i m sorry, i m wrong, sorry sorry sorry. saying sorry to u maybe makes mi feel better even though i dun think everything is my fault.
enjoy urself everytime when u r out, dun need care bout mi, i will be fine and i promise. if i am paranoid and acting stupid again, juz let mi be, i will recover on my own. i am gonna to be more independent on my feelings, that will be better for both u and mi....
loving u still...today went to school with a good morning mood. went for gems, had our presentation, mi and aric were the one presenting coz gm did most of the work alr, sry gm! lol... then went for our BMIC pract test, stupid test, sianz, i go and view wrong magnification for my plant cell ah!!! sobz... our clique were the fastest to finish and went out de, lol... den went to eat and to library to do PBL, then last l hr lesson i was damm shagged sia... teacher mad de, 1 hrs finish 10 plus pgs work, expect us to rmb everything... siao! i damm tired till slp in class...after sch, linny and justin and gm went orchard, then mi and pat went home, seriously dun really feel like gng home coz my hse seems damm empty and i go home also nth to do... argh... den wait till dear wake up at 7 plua, then play 2 rds of dota then he went fishing le... enjoy... i damm sianz now, think gng slp le ba... be pig be pig... hope i will have a sweet dreams tonite. thnx pat and linny and ain for everything. really appreciate that.
♥ loving you endlessly ♥
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